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Name: Tony
Country: United States
State: Texas
Metro: Abilene
Birthday: 7/8/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: Music, firefighting, and hanging with friends...
I like to read and love to go on walks, especially at night, I try to be romantic when it comes to girls (doesnt normally work out...lol)
Expertise: Firefighting, singing, playing trombone
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  mcmtromboner09
MSN: mcmfireman
Yahoo:  kingdrummajor
Member Since:
1/15/2006
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| Ever done something you look stupid for later.... well today was my day... today I was property of the fire department, cleaning at the station, washing trucks, ect.... sounds like a normal day, but the exciting part of that is the washing trucks part.... because to wash trucks, we have to pull them out of the station.... and since it is mid-day on a week day, I am the only one around to do the job, so that means I get to drive fire trucks..... now then, you need to know the background of our department at this time to understand how exciting this is..... no rookie is allowed to drive the trucks, especially not one of my age, but the chief gave me permission to do so..... so I pulled our biggest brush truck out and washed one side, drove it around the block to turn it around, and came back and washed the other side, and then I got ready to pull the truck back in..... this is where the stupid part comes in..... I FROZE.... I couldnt do it..... big ass truck, little hole, for me not normally a bad or difficult combination (if you know what I mean)..... but I just couldnt do it..... I had to look like an idiot and call a senior member of the department who was on lunch break to come back the truck back in the station...... shows how worthy I am to drive..... this sucks, now there is no telling how long it will be before I get to drive again.... I am a failure as a fire truck driver.... at least I can still squirt water..... | | |
| At this time in life, I have to step back and re-evaluate myself.... I am an 18 year old male, living at home, not attending college, single, unemployeed, and living a life filled with drama caused partially by myself and partially by others. Some of this I can change and some I cant.....let's assess the situation shall we: 1.)being 18 I cant help.. that was decided by my parents 18 years ago... 2.)Living at home could be helped but at this moment, I cant afford to live elsewhere... 3.)Not attending college was definitely a me thing, I decided to sleep rather than go to class... this would be ok other than the fact that I have to go to class to get an education.... Now, in attempts to salvage my life and career, I am headed to T.S.T.C. in the fall to go through the fire academy to be a professional fire fighter and E.M.T., so that is a step.... 4.)Well, being single is a me thing too... I flirt with way too many girls to be in a relationship, I have hurt too many people and I dont want to hurt anyone else.... (this next part is going to anger some people....) there is only one person I would date at this time, and she is located in Cypress... and at this moment, she isnt really acknowledging that I exist.... 5.)Unemployeed, well that is mutual.... I would still hold a job at K.T.A.B. if I hadnt screwed my knee up, but then again, they stopped talking to me... Now it is up to me to find a job... I just really havent had the motivation to do so, nor have I found anywhere I really want to work.... 6.)Drama, ahh the drama.... well, I will definitely say that I cause my fair share of my own drama and I really need to learn not to, but it is normally in relation to females or friends, yet again a me thing.... as for the drama caused by others, it is mostly family drama that I cant really help... not so much pertaining to me but as to others of the family that I am close to.... I started this entry at 11:52, and it is now 1:19, for the last hour and twenty seven minutes, I have sat here crying.... for what reason I do not know... I miss my mother in East Texas.... I miss my father even though he is just on the other end of the house.... I dont know what is wrong with me, I sit crying not knowing what I'm doing... Life is short and fragile... that I have learned from my many calls with the fire department, my life as it sits right now is almost worthless... I cant please myself and I cant please anyone else.... my mom wanted me to be a doctor, she believed in me and stood beside me, even from across the state, she knew what I was capable of being and I have thrown that away because I wanted to...she still supports me in any endeavor, but I know inside it isnt what she wants.... I dont really know what dad wants from me, he has always told me to be whoever I want to be... to not let society mold me, but to become my own individual.... but I dont know who I am anymore.... I'm not myself, I'm not who I was raised as.... I wanna be me again... I wanna see my mother and my father and to be happy again..... I dont wanna hurt anymore for the various reasons in my life.... why cant I just go back...... please....... | | |
| Well guys, it has been a while since I posted, a long while.... anyway, I am staying back home in Clyde, we have finally got our dsl installed so everyone should be able to catch me online at some point or another, my new aol screen name is clydefire330, if you cant figure that one out, ask me and i will explain what it means... plus my cell phone is back on so feel free to call (325) 665-2449, anyway, this is just to let everyone know I exist, ttyl.... Tony | | |
| Happy Day After Valentines Day everyone...... just kidding, but really though, this is more like the holiday for me.... now that the stupid day is over (singles awareness day, for those who dont know), I can sit back and relax.... I actually made it to band today, pretty good since I am not going to any of my classes because I am leaving the university.... band is the only thing I am still here for, that and my friends..... Dr. Neal is pissed at me though because I told him I was leaving the university plus I skipped on Monday and Tuesday so he bumped me down a chair..... That means several things..... 1. Robert will have oh so much fun sitting next to Bill....J/K man, I'm sorry......... 2. Bill and I have no idea now what we are playing because we had to switch parts, so that looks bad on Dr. Neal because we sound like shit.... 3. well, I cant think of a three, but I'm sure there is one....maybe 3 is that it pisses me off because band is all I go to.....anyway, it just looks bad on him so I dont care.... on another note, the ball seems to be rolling for my transformation from Dr. to fireman.... I am gathering all the info needed to go to T.S.T.C. here in Abilene and get into the academy.... I hope things go well, I really want to succeed at this.... well, that's all my time for today, join me next time on The Life of Tony where our special guest will be.......me talking about, whatever drama is in my life at the time.... should be interesting and I always have drama so no one will be disappointed..... | | |
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